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Twelve days and counting until my due date!  I took this picture before coming to work this morning.  I hope I go into labor before I have time to post weeks 39 or 40.  I don’t even want to jinx myself and discuss week 41.

I started packing my hospital bag last night.  I washed all of my cloth diapers, inserts and wipes.  I made the solution for the wipe warmer.  I don’t know if you consider this nesting, but I’m trying to stay on my feet and vertical as much as possible. 

I have a doctor’s appointment today so we’ll see if I am dilated at all.  I don’t think so, but this is my first rodeo so what do I know.  Excited and anxious can’t begin to describe how slow time is passing by.

Praying for an easy labor and delivery and a healthy baby girl!

***Update 3/3–Doctor’s report from yesterday–70% effaced, 1-2cm dilated, baby’s head is down and my doctor thinks I will deliver in the next week or so.  I’m not holding my breath.  I don’t know if anyone really knows exactly when a baby will be born, but I’m ready in the next week when she decides she would like to make her grand entrance into the world!


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I was reflecting on Valentine’s Day yesterday after looking at posts on Facebook.  Some were so excited about the dinner their significant other treated them to or flowers they were given, etc.  My thought has so often been — flower costs rise for the simple fact it is Valentine’s Day.  I would much rather my husband buy me flowers once or twice a year just for the heck of it than him go along with the crowd and send me flowers at the inflated price on February 14th which die.  I’m romantic like that!

I thought about how people have their significant others buy them massages and do something “special” for them on Valentine’s Day.  I realized how blessed I am.  My husband does all of these things throughout the year just because he loves me and not because it’s a specific date.  I don’t get flowers once a week, but who wants that?  My husband brings me flowers “for everything you do.”  My husband makes me dinner because well, he enjoys letting me sit back and relax while he cooks, serves me dinner and then will often even do the dishes after.  My husband gives me a massage because he knows I don’t like paying for the expensive massages.  Hubby spreads these things throughout the year and makes me feel special all of the time and not just because it’s February 14th.

Yesterday, Hubby and I both took off work to spend the day together per my request.  I had a coupon for IHop to buy 1 entree, get 1 free so we went to breakfast.  Next, we went to visit my friend TR in the hospital because she just had a baby.  Congrats TR!  We shopped for gliders for the baby’s room and video cameras, then rented a Redbox (free with promo code!), went home and relaxed and watched a movie.  To me, it was a perfect day.  My husband was attentive to what I wanted to do, I wasn’t fretting over spending a lot of money, I got to use my coupons and I spent the entire day relaxing and spending time with my husband. 

Everyone is different.  Not everyone gets a thrill out of using coupons like I do.  I honestly would be upset if my husband did go out and spent money on diamonds for me.  To each their own I suppose.

To Hubby, thank you for making me feel special all year long and not just sending me flowers once a year because it’s Valentine’s Day.  I love you!

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I know this is going to be hard to believe, but I make mistakes. There. It’s out. I know you are all surprised to hear this and I am just as shocked to admit it. Ok, not really.

Here’s the rub. I pride myself in always being honest. For the most part I am quite proud of this attribute. The down side to this is I am also opinionated. This isn’t necessarily a good thing. The other thing I’m good at is expressing these feelings. Again, it’s therapeutic to not hold your emotions in, but when you combine honesty, my opinionated self and add a dash of me expressing myself it often becomes someone else’s feelings who get hurt.

In my defense, I don’t sit and ponder and conspire how I am going to hurt someone’s feelings. I feel strongly about some things. This gets me in trouble as well. My mouth has no filter when these things come out. Sometimes I make an example out of myself thinking if I’ve made it about me the person couldn’t be offended. Then it becomes a situation where, “what does this have to do with you?” Well, I really didn’t mean to make it about me I was trying to spare your feelings. What I’ve really done is just make it about me, I look selfish and my point was never made. Now there is a whole other issue of saying something I didn’t really mean at all and I’m left to be the big mouth when what I really meant wasn’t portrayed at all—which is my fault. I need a filter on my mouth. One where the words process in my brain before they are spoken or in some cases written.

 Everyone sees and hears things differently. I’m not a complex person. What you see is what you get. What I say isn’t meant to be interpreted or looked into with ulterior motives. If I say it is pink I wholeheartedly think it’s pink. Not a shade or hue of red. I most likely didn’t consider how pink was made–it is what it is, in my mind—pink.

If I’ve hurt someone the aftermath leaves me broken, self defeated and in tears. I am my own worst critic. I beat myself up more than YOU ever could. I harbor guilt and anger like it’s nobody’s business. All of my feelings collide, I can’t think straight and I can’t tell you for the life of me what is heads or tails. I try to sort it all out in my head, but everything is jumbled and not one thought is clear.

Deciding at this point if an apology is necessary is difficult. Do I let it go? Do I apologize and try to explain, or am I going to make it worse? Do I drag it all out again or let it die? Clearly, every situation is different, but I have a hard time making a judgment call here

I don’t have a remedy for this last process so preventing it from the beginning is my best solution. The bright side? I’m still learning. Observing. Making myself better. Acknowledging these traits I don’t like can only make me better–for me and my new baby girl.

If you have been directly impacted by the above unfiltered mouth syndrome described above please know that I am truly sorry.

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Here’s a belly shot at 30 weeks:

Here’s a front shot of my new do:

I haven’t mastered taking my own picture so please forgive.  You get the idea.

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So this….

…used to be all of my hair.  It is no longer attached, therefore no longer mine.  (Last time I did do Locks of Love, but without my knowledge I got bleached last time and L.O.L. won’t take bleached hair.  I’m still bitter and don’t want to talk about it.)

I need to get you a better picture.  I turned my head and snapped this one at work.

It’s longer in front, but not drastically longer.

Baby update: Today marks 29 weeks.  11 weeks to go!

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I’m happy to announce we are having a girl expected to arrive March 14, 2011!  To date, she weighs 12 oz! 

We are considering Reagan for her name, but that’s this week.  Who knows what I’ll change my mind to in the coming weeks!  I’ve already gone through Hadleigh and Madison.  Hadleigh might be a consideration for the middle name.  All recommendations (other than your own name) are appreciated!  I couldn’t name my child Madison after I saw the Jackass 3D movie.  Steve O (SteveO–however you spell his name) had Madison tattooed above one of his breasts.  I was done with the name Madison the moment I saw this.

At my docor’s appointment yesterday, I did have a little blood in my urine so I have to take a prescription.  This indicates I might have a urinary tract infection.  I’ve had UTI’s my whole life and normally can feel them coming on.  TMI–when I was in 5th grade I had my urethra tube stretched due to so many bladder infections.

I also have carpal tunnel.  I am supposed to buy a wrist brace and wear it as much as possible.  I have a doctor’s appointment with an orthopaedic doctor next Wednesday who will possibly give me a steroid shot in my wrist.  My OBGYN says the carpal tunnel will only get worse as my pregnancy progresses. 

I’m looking forward to March 2011!

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1.  Hubby had his appendectomy Thursday.  He had it removed laproscopically, but is still very sore.  He’s been a good patient; sleeping mostly!

2.  I am 20 weeks today!  Officially half way through the pregnancy.  I can’t wait until I can hold my baby (not that I wish for a premature baby by any means).  I know it’s going to be a love I have never felt before. 

3.  I am so sick and tired of people my grandma telling me I’m showing more than I should at 20 weeks.  I thought everyone carries different.  I’m 5’1″ tall.  Where is my baby going to go.  OUT!  That’s where!  I don’t have  a long torso.  It’s irritating because 1) I can’t help it.  2) It’s rude and 3) IT’S RUDE!  What do you want me to do about it wear spanx?

4.  Wednesday we find out the gender of the baby.  The time between now and Wednesday is going to feel like a lifetime!

5.  They say you have crazy dreams when you are pregnant.  I fell asleep watching Keeping Up with the Kardashians last night.  I dreamed all night I was dating Rob Kardashian and people kept calling me a cougar.  I think there is an episode where the paparazzi call Kim a cougar because she had a photo shoot with Justin Beber.  It’s funny how your mind twists everything in dreams.  (If you don’t watch Keeping Up with the Kardashians–sorry; you should.)

6.  We are having Thanksgiving at our house this year.  Truly, I have dreamed of this for so many years and I’m tickled pink!  When we bought our house all I could picture is having everyone over for Thanksgiving.  So far I have 34 people on my guest list, but I’m guessing between 25-30 will actually show up.  When I think of the number of people in my house it makes me happy to be spending Thanksgiving with my entire family.  It also makes me cringe with the thought of the kids touching the walls.  I’ve noticed the stairwell already needs painting.  I’ll wait until after Thanksgiving!  I also keep thinking of the baseboards needing to be cleaned when I’m over 6 months pregnant.  It might be necessary to disregard my baseboards for Thanksgiving this year — look — something shiny!  I reserve the right to divert one’s attention as necessary.

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